Tuesday, September 30, 2014

An Inspiration to write about!

Traditions mark our life....our beliefs and they are the actual hand-me-downs that we shall leave behind for all eternity!
while todays super-fast paced life leaves little room to ponder on the very notion, I truly enjoy the gift of noticing and thus cherish what others have to offer!
Being Navaratri, n us having a handful of people to invited and get invited, we visited Arvind's aunts place today....and what an experience it has been!![me writing this post says it all!]

When u enter the house, the first thing that strikes u are the pieces they use to decorate their home...One can immediately imagine the extensive travel they would have done, and the eye for detail the lady of the house posseses, as there are just so many diversifying show pieces, paintings and other hangings!
their entertainment centre plays home to almost a 100 different show pieces inclusive of soft toys and some beautiful family moments consisting of them, their children n their spouses and finally their grandchildren....

All this information only increased my curiosity about the kind of golu i would get to c today[this being my second visit there overall], and were we amazed!

the best part of it being the fact that though many of the pieces may be usual, their arrangement and their preservation through these years makes them truly beautiful....

The Golu.....

 The First step has Valli and Murugan along with a kalasham[their tradition]. the second having Alamelu Mangayar and Lord Balaji along with two dolls of the Kanchi Periyavar of whom they are devotees along with interesting tulasi madams....
the third has Marapachi dolls along with others icluding the guruvayur elephants.
The forth having the Ashta-Lakshmi dolls.


the Fifth step had an amazing Gowmata figurine that ive hardly seen in pictures...along with Lord Ganesha, Goddess Saraswati and Lakshmi, along with Dashavatar.
the latter step had the Chettiyar-Chettichi and a wedding scene....

on one side on the floor was a scene of a field...and another was a very unusual scene of a church with Christmas decorations....
and the decorated lamp[Villaku] just added on to the beauty.


 The side of the step had a small platform for Radha and Krishna with a beautiful toran mandapam of the Goddess herself overlooking!

what struck me most was the way the steps were decorated, with a huge Lord Balajis wall hanging on the top, the toran and most of all little pieces of christmas tree decorations mixed with the garlands and lights on the side.
Another interesting piece was the battery lit diya, that came all the way from the U.S to decorate the golu.....which were lighting up the steps quite brilliantly!
 The Pujari itself had 3 miniature golu steps that she had decorated with beautiful golden studded Gods and Goddesses.....
 Niyant with both the grandmoms...

 A beautiful Guruvayur piece in the living room
 Niyant enjoying the decor and last but not the least...Myself n Perima!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The new face.....

life has turned me inside out...
where each day i c a new side to me...
some are surprisingly positive...n some surprisingly not...
never the less, i should admit....they are a spec of me!

something today just struck me...
after all these years...
i finally have a little pious soul looking up to me with lovely eyes...
who looks at me n wonders...whats he gonna observe today...

that experience of having inquisitive eyes...
that smile at me with wonder...
made me feel a sense of responsibility.....
As if each moment I should watch my move...

As if its crucial for me to scrutinize myself, before i make ne moves.

Lifes given me a palette of experiences,
which today define me..
The good, bad and the ugly...

but no matter how hard i try, i some how am unable to keep the bad n ugly out!

Its important that i make my atmosphere friendly..
Its important that i make sure my heart stays pure..
For i know n believe that its upto us to take negativity in or out....

Today, i stand at cross roads where my own beliefs mock me...
as if they tease their very existence in me...
n that i have set out to preach!

There is so much that i wanna get back to...
to keep my peace within me...
But i wonder if thats possible..
coz tide and time wait for none...n im wondering if my time has slipped away??

This new face, has put me into a soul searching quest...
wherein all i know is that i need to triumph with my positive best...
coz i cant preach what i dont believe....


Saturday, January 28, 2012

What more?

no matter what i do,
i never feel as if ive touched the mark........
no matter how hard i try, im made to feel inadequate!
my smile never lasts no matter how much i stretch my lips
my tears see no end as if the supply is unlimited...

i really dont understand the reasons though....
for all of this emotional turmoil.....
i fail to understand wht more i need to let go of...
my hands are already empty!

even after being surrounded by so many ppl...
im made to feel lonely...
why is my fate such.....is a question unanswered!

i try n satisfy my heart with what ever i have...
n still im made to feel empty!

i donno what more to do....
to deserve a smile thats worth Me!

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Silence in the Heart!

Ever felt the silence that prevails inside ur heart?
A feeling that stands stagnant admist the chaos?
A pinch that makes u feel that words are a pain....
A pain....u've long felt n bred on!

Surprisingly, i used to feel it quite often earlier.....
I think i off-late had started over looking it...
n suddenly today....ive been re-acquainted to my old friend...
A friend who,  i thought, brought me peace!

i some how now, have realized my world other than people
whom i gave the importance they hold today!
Ive come face to face with my reality...
that i had long forgotten drowning in bliss!

The happiness i hold in my heart....
as if is my treasure...
a treasure i thought i cld share...
a treasure i realize, nobodys interested in!

the people i held as the center of my world,
were ppl who demanded their freedom....
People, who after being freed look at me with inquisitive eyes!

I know that not every choice i make is my own....
I do what people want me to do!
N im forced to often wonder....
Why am i to bear its consequence there after??

N after all that drama, I manage to find peace in fate...
forgetting that this chaos wasnt mine...
but admitting that it now is a part of my life!

With all the hyper energy around me,
I am reminded, that I am responsible for my peace....
Even if others interfere!

I may sometimes dim the spotlight on others....
focusing on the self now
for i have just realized how important i am to myself....
that there will b no me....if im not taken care of!

Ive learnt through time to let go of things
that dont want to be a part of my world....
I am learning to expect less from others...
I am starting to appreciate the beautiful Silence that my heart holds!


Friday, April 22, 2011

Lifetime......

life is actually a tale comprising of the ppl who let u down during the various stages of ur life!
there are no possible methods to move on from pain....
there are only new faces and new reasons to feel pain!!
the moment u let ur guards down fr an individual.....
they take great pride in hurting u.....
they get into ur life assuring happiness...
finding all the possible loopholes ur emotions may portray!
every emotion of love that u experience for a person.....
is like an unopened present!
u nvr know whts behind that lovely wrap!
the more u unveil it....the more u get distured...
for even if its nothing like wht u gifted.....widout expecting nething in return....
It was sumthing ud expect to c the least!!
i donno why is it such a recurring incidence....
as if each time u learn....ur made to realise, uve left out another chapter!
however small a thing may it b that u expect frm another....
disappointment is wht ud meet wid!
irrespective of the kind of person u r....
irrespective of wht u give out!

the biggest mistake a person can ever do....is to luv sumbody more....
for they get more chances to hurt u n to make u bleed wid the bluntest of knives!

one doesnt req to be good in conveying their feelings....
for the other person, is blissfully deaf.....n blind!
ud always b blamed to be inconsiderate.....
ull always b the person who creates the scene!

 i really wish there was a way to feel less pain....
a way where we dont let ppl just enter our heart n squeeze it!!
for it just doesnt feel fair....
that in such a short life span.....a heart has to go thru all this pain!! 

Sunday, February 06, 2011

thoughts

ive always believed that its a persons beliefs that make a character....
it sets the standards fr people to knw their line!
but many a times ive seen myself fail in putting across my point
in making ppl acknowledge the seriousness of my principles!

i knw attimes i may not completely justify asserting my beliefs,
but it hurts me to accept that ppl change their wrds n im made to live wid things that are against my beliefs!
i just cant accept this defeat!
i may attimes be graceful about their feelings n not make an issue
but i cant deny that i feel hurt!
the only thing that crosses my mind is wht if i too repeated wht they did to me
....changed my wrds n later made up by being upfront n say its btr on face than behind their back!

i knw i need to look past these small issues......
but i often wonder....wld others too b that gracious?


Friday, September 24, 2010

To Leave and move on.....

I often look around n find ppl
who manage to be impressively practical.....
People who manage to figure out where to draw the line
No matter how thin it may be!

I've tried to understand this ideology....
n have succeeded to the extend of understanding the necessity of its existence...
but I've always lacked to implement it with leverage.

i have wid time managed to evolve as a being
who can understand the various stages of relationships n its unspoken rules!
I always thght love cld be imparted selflessly..... widout expectations....
Definitely..... widout the expectation of being understood, forget appreciated!

i knw i quite often come across familiar words,....
but Alas! life gets me into its vicious circle n grinds me well!

I may not be the only soul to experience this n so i wont expect sympathy of any sorts....
rather I would like to knw where am i lacking.....
For the more u keep ur heart crystal clear....
the more u r accused of being two faced!

Why words are so important, is truly beyond me.....
coz ppl dont listen to me anyways!!

things manage to turn out so contradictory....
That the dilemma is whether to sob or laugh!

where is that line that i am suppose to draw??....
the one that portrays me as caring n not desperate........

there are so many scenarios where ive put up a sentimental show.....
scenarios where ppl wanted me to be "strong"!

ive found that its easy to speculate or control others situations.....
than being in their place n helping them out.....
Easy to solve the prob than figuring out a win-win situation!

never have i understood how can 1 claim preferring you
by choosing over u!

Is it that i lack understanding of the worldly wisdom....
Of knowing when to say that u love!

how is it possible to make ppl understand ur heart
widout them taking u for granted??

It seems easy to look at others n aspire to be them.......
trying to create something out of u thats completely unlike you!

maybe that is the catch.....
to know when to leave n when to pull back......
to know that diff in emotion
where neither r u completely practical nor completely emotional....
that stage where u stay in control of urself
n being able to say.....
that ur world does consist of other priorities.....

to try till the extent ur heart n mind agree.....
to know when to leave n when to move on!!