Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Realization of an expectant heart...........

i rise each day
to a new challenge.....

each moment i endeavor to understand
the pattern of my thghts..........

i know i now sound weird
ppl find it difficult to relate!

i know my love is far more soul piercing...........
my deeds are way too expressive.........

i expect somebody's presence.....
n there are ppl who expect mine!

here i stand with my self in jeopardy.....
for these eyes now seem blank rather than hollow........

i think i know my dream doesnt want me anymore........
i think its only me whos faking a dream world!

may be that wrld is just a wild dream........
my lifes truth.......is the biggest lie!

Monday, October 20, 2008

My expectations as a human......

i look arnd me
i find faces that amuse me quite well......surprisingly!

i knw im quite easy to satisfy
though difficult to convince...

i look through my self..........
find loopholes that yet havnt bn fixed!

i feel weird abt this idea of self redemption......
as if the whole world expects only me to understand n think.....

i agree, "i am" good at useless ponder....
n may be thats why i discover things sooner n act upon!

but now i seek rest....
i want that shoulder to rest my head on......

all these years, ive learnt to be selfless
n i agree on enjoying every moment being this self.....

i know its "hurting" me now....
coz im thinking abt myself now....

but all i ask.......is whether knowing ur desires so wrong??
Is wanting to smile free, so big an expectation??

i know the wrld isnt ready yet to c this face of mine....
especially a face without makeup!

my shoulder isnt aware yet that i need it.....
my support system still is blissfully ignorant.........

i know.....time is all i need....
for all this time along......this line has been the only soother!

my own life, for long has been lived within boundaries.......
n now the walls find it difficult to build bridges!

my trust has always been easily breached........
n i still havnt learnt to judge......

my failure lies in my selflessness
my loophole lies in trusting others!

i lead my life by the moment.....
trying to make it easier to sail thru......

may be this whole idea of a lovable world is a myth.....
n thats why my life as a human is only abt these scars..........

Monday, October 06, 2008

A silent breath!

I look at my palms
i try n read my fate....
i know, not all wld be appropriate....
i still keep my faith intact!

I look at the people who accompany me at each stage....
i look at their perfectly drawn lines in my life!

i often fail to understand.... why does destiny put me in such a situation......
where i have nothing to offer but silence...............................

not all, ofcourse, get a happy ending......
but why shd i spread tears?

is being clear cut in thghts so wrong?
why is my selfless love exposed to free analysis?

why is the notion of a deep thght so hard to understand............
why do i have to hurt ppl wid my love!

is it rite for me to fade away???
AM I ON THE RITE PATH???

all my life i was taught only to spread smiles....
n today those same eyes hide tears inside..........

is it appropriate for me to fade away?????

to face hardships is human fate....
my motto has been to ease off the burden......

but may be i myself donno my limits....
i may be often forget "im human"!!

every breath of mine today is in jeopardy....
i hav nobody to speak up to.....

my life has always been in troubled waters....
ive taken those ripples as a pleasure!

every breath of mine today seems a debt.......
for the ones i love the most.....cry coz of me......all in silence!!!!!!!!